Feeling Bad!

OK.

I commit to doing better.


I have had a lot of, um fun, the last few weeks.


It's time for some salads.


It's time for some exercising.


I have not even dared get on the scale to see what the last two weeks has caused me. So, tomorrow morning I'm going to get on the scale. I'm going to write that (blankity, blank, blank) number down. And I'm going to do better. Help me!!!! And you know what I've realized the last few days? It tasted good eating all the goodies and food - but I don't feel good when I eat it. I am up at night sick more, and I honestly know it isn't doing me any good. Yesterday I had Rocky Road ice cream around 8pm. I was sick in the bathroom from 11-12. I know these foods make me sick, and yet I still eat them, what is wrong with me?

Friends - how are your goals coming?

DOWN

I have been going to Weight Watchers for three weeks now! This week when I weighed in I lost two pounds! Yeah I was hoping for more like five, But I will settle for two. Now for next week my goal is three pounds! I wish you all the best of luck this time of year!

2 lbs.

2 lbs. How much do you think I would gain if I ate 2lbs of something? Lets say chocolate?

So I was up again this week, another 4 oz. I wasn't surprised, because I had fun on Thanksgiving, and the day after, and the day after that. So it's time to refocus. Tuesday was my work party at the Timbermine, and what do we get? A big fat juicy steak (which was delicious!), and 2 lbs of See's chocolates. 2 lbs? Who really needs 2 lbs of chocolate? But Mike is being "good". He has started the biggest loser at work, and has been exercising in the morning and not eating so much, so he hasn't had one. And I've tried really hard, I've only had 2 a day, since I got them. I was even thinking of regifting them - but in the middle of the night I needed a little treat!

So, I have to set a pound goal right now - so I will be good this week! I want to be down 2lbs (fitting I know :) ) (that kind of looks like a double chin.....)

So, I need some exersise ideas for the freezing cold! Ready set go!

(Congrats to Stacy for meeting her first goal!)

A Goal Met!

I did it and I did better than that I lost 5 lbs!!!! Ok, ok so it was more because I haven't sat longer than 2 minutes ALL week long! So now I must set another goal......Another 5 by christmas. Piece of cake, sure as long as I stay away from the cake!

Up.

Does that sum it "up" pretty well? .4, I am thankful it wasn't 1.4 or 10.4 (which it may be by the time today is over......).....Happy Thanksgiving!

Low Point Taco Salad

This is one dinner Mike and I really like....

1 Chicken Breast, cooked with 1/4 pouch of taco seasoning (This really is only for two people, so feel free to double or triple as needed.
1 Head of Lettuce
Tortilla Chips
Salsa
Fat Free Ranch
Tomato
Small can black or green olives
Cheese

I cook the chicken and shred it, put it over some lettuce, at a small amount of cheese (2oz) then at tomato's, ranch, salsa and a few olives. Then crunch up a few chips over the top and serve.

It's tasty and actually really low points because no chili or sour cream. Mike has asked for this when we are not dieting....

I was going through my handy dandy book of quotes while preparing for my talk. I found two quotes, one said "Obesity is proof that God does not help those who help themselves and help themselves and help themselves." I remember when I found that quote, it was 10 years ago while I was working at Jacob Lake. Now mind you, I have always been heavy - the quote is actually quite offensive, but it reminds me of the opposite. God loves each of us, and will help us if we ask. But he generally doesn't defy the laws of nature, if it goes in your mouth, it's going to find a home somewhere....

The other quote I found said, "Anyone can give up, it's the easiest thing in the world to do. But to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you fell apart, that's true strength."

This week ended up being just a bit easier than the last, no birthday parties with yummy treats - and Mike, Grace and I shared a peppermint chocolate chip shake instead of buying two like we normally would (baby steps...) Well the scale was positive, down 2.6!!! It was a good feeling!

So, this week before Thanksgiving - hopefully this will be another losing week, and then the following week I would just like to maintain... I'm not going to deny myself Thanksgiving dinner, dead turkey soup or pecan pie....

Good luck to you and me!

Time to Get on the Bandwagon

So Veronica has been amazing at posting and she really has been profound! It is time for me to step up to the plate and post my goals then that way you all will know them and you can keep on me.

1) Drink half my body weight in water everyday.

2) Weigh only once a week instead of 30 times a day.

3) Take only half of what is on my plate.

4) Get 30 minutes of exercise 3 times a week. (I think chasing kiddos should count, right?)

5) Don't get discouraged.

6) Lose 3 lbs. by Thanksgiving!

The really sad thing is that I live in a town with a whopping 3 restaurants in it none of these being fast food either! We can do this Veronica when we see each other next time we might not recognize each other!

Challanges

So - the world being against me, and my will power being weak... I didn't hit 3lbs this week.

Challenges....
- Cinnabon opened at the mall where I work....
- 2 Birthday parties, one with carrot cake, one with cheesecake.....
- Bitter cold weather so not so much exercising....

Success
-I only had one Cinnamon roll
-I didn't have seconds at either birthday party
-I have really improved my water intake...
-I lost 2 lbs....

Goals - 11/11-11/18
- 2 lbs
- Keep up the water
- Write it down!
- (Does dance dance revolution count as exercises?)

In the beginning

So, I would love to be profoundly influential here, but that is just not me. So I will list some truths and see where that takes me.

1- I don't like what I see when I look in the mirror. When I don't look in the mirror, I have an image of myself, that is sort of half of me, does that make sense? I really don't see me as large as I am when I imagine me???

2- I have always been overweight. I will always struggle with my weight. These are things I know, with all my heart.

3 - I remember in high school thinking how fat I was, now I look at those pictures and think, wow, if I could only be that skinny!

4 - I truly weigh what I did before I had Max, but I'm 1-2 sizes larger. Everything dropped. I remember looking at ladies who had the stomach butt and feeling really sorry and wondering how that even happens. Well girls, I've got one and I can tell you how. I don't like it. All of my shirts are not long enough, and I do not like looking at my gut naked.

5- I'm blessed to have a husband who loves me no matter what I look like, no matter what I weigh, and he tells me how beautiful I am. I feel very blessed for having him. And every time he says it part of me thinks how? why? look at me!

6- This was not a feel bad, pick on me day. This blog is not a result of 1 bad day. I have been thinking for months that I need to do something. I need to have some sort of motivation. So, there is no worse time of year to start dieting, yes friends tomorrow is Halloween, but I can not weight any longer. (PS that was on purpose...any of you who know my spelling woes may wonder...)

7- I loved Weight Watchers, it truly worked while I went. But the cost means I would have to work one extra day a month, and that is just not worth it to me. I want to prove that I can do this, without being away from my kids anymore that I am.

8 - I want to be alive for a long time. I want to be able to play with my kids, and be active.

7 - So my goal - I want to lose 60lbs by my birthday. June 28th, 2009 I will be 60 lbs slimmer than I am today, sitting at my computer pondering how.

So here is my thought, any of you who want to help, who want to maybe become a loser too, I'll give you rights to post on this blog. Post your goals, post your recipes, post words of encouragement, trials, failures and successes. I need all the help I can get. Anyone willing?