In the beginning

So, I would love to be profoundly influential here, but that is just not me. So I will list some truths and see where that takes me.

1- I don't like what I see when I look in the mirror. When I don't look in the mirror, I have an image of myself, that is sort of half of me, does that make sense? I really don't see me as large as I am when I imagine me???

2- I have always been overweight. I will always struggle with my weight. These are things I know, with all my heart.

3 - I remember in high school thinking how fat I was, now I look at those pictures and think, wow, if I could only be that skinny!

4 - I truly weigh what I did before I had Max, but I'm 1-2 sizes larger. Everything dropped. I remember looking at ladies who had the stomach butt and feeling really sorry and wondering how that even happens. Well girls, I've got one and I can tell you how. I don't like it. All of my shirts are not long enough, and I do not like looking at my gut naked.

5- I'm blessed to have a husband who loves me no matter what I look like, no matter what I weigh, and he tells me how beautiful I am. I feel very blessed for having him. And every time he says it part of me thinks how? why? look at me!

6- This was not a feel bad, pick on me day. This blog is not a result of 1 bad day. I have been thinking for months that I need to do something. I need to have some sort of motivation. So, there is no worse time of year to start dieting, yes friends tomorrow is Halloween, but I can not weight any longer. (PS that was on purpose...any of you who know my spelling woes may wonder...)

7- I loved Weight Watchers, it truly worked while I went. But the cost means I would have to work one extra day a month, and that is just not worth it to me. I want to prove that I can do this, without being away from my kids anymore that I am.

8 - I want to be alive for a long time. I want to be able to play with my kids, and be active.

7 - So my goal - I want to lose 60lbs by my birthday. June 28th, 2009 I will be 60 lbs slimmer than I am today, sitting at my computer pondering how.

So here is my thought, any of you who want to help, who want to maybe become a loser too, I'll give you rights to post on this blog. Post your goals, post your recipes, post words of encouragement, trials, failures and successes. I need all the help I can get. Anyone willing?